I wonder if we'll ever be satisfied...

I was sitting here in my room trying to waste time before I go to my hot yoga class and because of all that time(close to 4 hours) I got to thinking if we'll ever(we: meaning me, girls in general, you, and whomever else that has this issue) be ok with ourselves? We always see ourselves differently than others do but I want to, even once, say to myself, "I'm ok the way I am, how I am and who I am. I'm happy." But I've never been able to say that. Honestly, I'm always looking for ways to "better" modify myself to accommodate someone else... I think we all might have been here before. The truth is, I'm so sick of it. Will I ever get over this? I heard the phrase, "You have to love yourself first before someone else can love you." Is this true? If so, this explains my past haha. Whenever I do change something about myself, like my hair color or buy a new shirt, I do it for someone else, someone that I want to please, someone that very much does NOT deserve this at all. At first, I thought this was me being thoughtful, and it still is but most of the time, it does me no good. It goes unnoticed and then I feel bad. The only way I'm motivated to do something better for myself is through someone else. I want to change this vicious cycle with myself! And that's the truth...

This post is mostly for my own self motivation and to get all these thoughts and questions out of my head. I've already cleansed my body, now I want to cleanse my mind and the way I think. So far, I am making sooooo much progress. Everyday I'm finding something that I like about myself, whether it's something small, like my smile or even my hair.

I'm hoping that one of these days my own judgment will be enough :)

We moved!

This has been quite a past couple of weeks! Let me tell you! haha I moved into my apartment with my cousin, Summer. So far, everything has been great, however, I find myself with alot of time on my hands! Which is why I'm doing the 30 day hot yoga challenge. Yep! that's right, it's in full swing! I'm on day 18. Woo! almost there. But anyway, I have the cutest apartment! and I have my own room, which is great because I've never had my own room, I've always had to share with someone. So, the change is kind of wierd to adjust to at first. It's real quiet all the time and I know where everything is hahaha. Nothing goes missing. Also, I get my own bathroom! This is too exciting.

                                       (Not our shot glass, belongs to someone we know haha)

                                     In my bathroom. I'm sure this will be more full as time goes by!

Life is great! I have everything I want and more. I have no idea where life is going to take me and I can't say I'm not excited about what's to come. I still have hope for everything. Love, happiness, friendship. I have that all right now, and I plan on keeping it.

The other day, I found out that my sister and her boyfriend were having some problems and I had said some stuff to him. Later on that night, he text me and told me that they got back together. He said this, and I quote, "I thought about what you said..." This made me so happy! because finally someone thought about what I told them! hahaha My sister and him were both happy. Oh! and speaking about love, this Valentines was full of it! I had to work and I didn't have a sweetheart to spend it with but I decided to make some V-Day cards for my sisters :) I also got them little gifts with it. I had so much fun! Here's Brooke's card: