Here is my lovely class! It's so amazing how close we grew :)
more about these wonderful people later
I still have some issues with confidence and my teaching but I know it's in me to do it. I just need to find that groove and just go with it! :) As frustrating as it is, I know I'll get there in time, when it's right for me. During our last class we each got to share a reflection of our experience with this Yoga Teacher Training. At first, I had no idea what I was going to say but then I realized that no matter what I said, everyone would be understanding. So, I shared that I had been going through depression for the past few years and coming to this class has made me feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel and there were days when I didn't want to come to class but that when I did, they brought me back to life. They made me feel and experience the happy part of myself and it was such a weight off my shoulder, that even for three hours, two nights a week, I could relax. It was the energy of these individuals. They know the vulnerable side of me and I felt secure among them and like I was apart of something wonderful. I was very, very scared to share something that personal to SO many people but they aren't just ANYBODY, I shared time and space with them for six months and that means something to me, it means that they're close enough to me to know something that personal, they held me up and supported me when I felt I couldn't. I love them so much and hope the best for them! I hope we don't lose contact and continue to share the love.
This is from one of our outings :) We went to this bar to celebrate and we were all
dressed in our yoga clothes hahaha it was so much fun!
From left to right: Jaime, who's cut off in this picture, she's so funny and I love her voice! it's so calming. She's helped me uncover alittle more of my confidence and encourages me.
Staci, with her amazing smile, who has been with me since our orientation about two weeks or something like that before class even started. She always makes me smile and makes me feel so welcome. Her energy is amazing and she has the cutest Texas accent!
Serena, who is so wise! and looks 20 years younger than her actual age! she looks amazing! We share a special connection :)
Nicole, she's hilarious! i love her laugh! and she's so authentic. She's helped me learn to not be afraid to say how I feel and just be ME.
Allicia, I didn't think she liked me in the beginning haha but recently we've really came out of our shells and are more acquainted. She has great style and is a very strong person. You would be shocked to know her age as well. We all didn't believe her haha!
Annie, so down to earth! and always greeted me with such exuberant energy, I hope to embody her enthusiasm.
AND, Travis, he's so... what's the word....? FREE. and his hair looks amazing hahaha He recently just decided to quit his job, just like THAT. He inspires me so much and has given me so much advice and support.
Travis was proud of this picture hahaha
I've gravitated towards this group (there are a few who weren't in this picture) I thought I would say something about them just to show how much I appreciate them and what they have done for me. And this goes for ALL my yoga peeps! I have learned from all of them. My angels :) I've learned that living with depression, you need to go out, be around great company, laugh and have fun! and just let everything go. They helped me do that. Laughter is the greatest medicine, and I truly believe that.
I am also going to go see a doctor because I think it's alittle more than I can try and fix, I need more concrete answers to what's going on. I was against seeing a doctor because I was worried I would be addicted to medication but someone very special to me, a mentor of mine, Stuart, helped me put perspective on the idea that I need SPACE to help me deal and evaluate my depression. I can't fight depression while being depressed. My mind was so opened after my conversation with him.
I got the courage to reach out to one person before this, this person brought me hope and HUGGED me and told me everything would be ok. She's my star who never gave up offering her help and continuously asks me how I am doing.
I only shared this with my best friend, Angelica and my mom, they were the only people in my life who knew how severe it was. I didn't want to make a scene and tell everyone because I didn't want to bring anyone down with me or become a burden. I now know that SHARING how you feel with the people closest to you is very important for recovery. Holding things in will not help you, but will make you sink.
Move your body, dance like a CRAZY person if it makes you feel good :)
If you have a dance party, invite me! I'll be there! they are SO much fun haha
Get some sun, the greatest, all natural type of medicine.
I'll be posting some yoga poses that have helped me feel better when I'm feeling really down and I hope it helps someone out there :)
I also attended my first Hockey game!!! it was the best thing ever!
A fight broke out!!! hahaha Silly
We got amazing seats
Unfortunately, my Coyotes lost this game :(
Lastly, I got a new kitty :) I named her Leila (LEE-la) She's such a cuddle bug and I love her haha my friends call me the cat lady.
Thank you for letting my share my story, well, ANOTHER part of my story haha. Hold space in your heart for others who need it. Hug them as much as possible and comfort them. From my heart to yours.... <3
~Drew
