Wednesday, November 2, 2011

My Safe Haven and Someone Special

Have you ever had a place to go to where you felt completely comfortable? Where you could do anything your heart desired? If you have, then you will relate to this blog :) My place would be my best friend of six years, Angelica's house. It is the homiest home that I've ever been to. You see, I'm hardly ever at my parent's house and most would think that that would be my second favorite place to be besides my own apartment but nope. I only go to my parent's house in the mornings if I don't have work because that's when my dad isn't there. He makes me feel completely uncomfortable and unwanted. I never know if he'll like me or just be mad for no reason and say, "why did you have to come over? I don't feel like having anyone over, you're gonna have to leave." so I just prefer to avoid him at all costs and avoid that horrible feeling of rejection.

About a year ago, I moved in with Angelica and her family just after our horrible Europe trip fiasco. I moved with her because of my dad and his overbearing ways and constant negativity, it wasn't a good environment. My 16 year old brother just recenty moved out because of him. Only 16! I moved in with her just until I got everything worked out with work and whatnot because all my plans had changed without warning. Angelica pretty much knows everything about my life and everything I've been through. She helped me out of that environment with my dad and asked me to move in with her and I've never regretted it. Her family is so inviting and down to earth. Just going to he house and watching tv would set my day positive And make everything in my life seem less dramatic and my family issues would lessen. She's a friend that I know will ALWAYS be my best friend. She knows me probably better than I know myself. She's taught me so much. I love talking to her, she always gives feedback and constructive critizism.

I can sit at her house and never feel in need of anything. I feel safe. Her and her family never make me feel awkward and unwanted and it makes me sooooo happy that they're just as comfortable around me. I'm completely appreciative for everything she's ever done for me, and it's been a lot. I would do anything for her. She's been there for me and wanted me when my own parents never let me back in. I've been on my own since 18, he told me to never come back. I wasn't a horrible kid. Straight A student, graduated with honors, and kept to myself, was always in my room reading or something. So it wasn't like I was a trouble maker. Anyway, she always made room for me. We're Jay and Silent Bob, Cheech and Chong, Batman and Robbin hahaha :) we are complete opposites but we compliment each other so well. I hope she know how unbelieveably grateful I am. I have been spending alot of time with her and it has helped me live my reality alittle better, life is more exciting and I get a break from everyday life. Thank you, Angelica. :)