Have you ever had a place to go to where you felt completely comfortable? Where you could do anything your heart desired? If you have, then you will relate to this blog :) My place would be my best friend of six years, Angelica's house. It is the homiest home that I've ever been to. You see, I'm hardly ever at my parent's house and most would think that that would be my second favorite place to be besides my own apartment but nope. I only go to my parent's house in the mornings if I don't have work because that's when my dad isn't there. He makes me feel completely uncomfortable and unwanted. I never know if he'll like me or just be mad for no reason and say, "why did you have to come over? I don't feel like having anyone over, you're gonna have to leave." so I just prefer to avoid him at all costs and avoid that horrible feeling of rejection.
About a year ago, I moved in with Angelica and her family just after our horrible Europe trip fiasco. I moved with her because of my dad and his overbearing ways and constant negativity, it wasn't a good environment. My 16 year old brother just recenty moved out because of him. Only 16! I moved in with her just until I got everything worked out with work and whatnot because all my plans had changed without warning. Angelica pretty much knows everything about my life and everything I've been through. She helped me out of that environment with my dad and asked me to move in with her and I've never regretted it. Her family is so inviting and down to earth. Just going to he house and watching tv would set my day positive And make everything in my life seem less dramatic and my family issues would lessen. She's a friend that I know will ALWAYS be my best friend. She knows me probably better than I know myself. She's taught me so much. I love talking to her, she always gives feedback and constructive critizism.
I can sit at her house and never feel in need of anything. I feel safe. Her and her family never make me feel awkward and unwanted and it makes me sooooo happy that they're just as comfortable around me. I'm completely appreciative for everything she's ever done for me, and it's been a lot. I would do anything for her. She's been there for me and wanted me when my own parents never let me back in. I've been on my own since 18, he told me to never come back. I wasn't a horrible kid. Straight A student, graduated with honors, and kept to myself, was always in my room reading or something. So it wasn't like I was a trouble maker. Anyway, she always made room for me. We're Jay and Silent Bob, Cheech and Chong, Batman and Robbin hahaha :) we are complete opposites but we compliment each other so well. I hope she know how unbelieveably grateful I am. I have been spending alot of time with her and it has helped me live my reality alittle better, life is more exciting and I get a break from everyday life. Thank you, Angelica. :)
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
Here's where my journey truly begins
So, a couple of months ago I decided to take my passion and connection for yoga and do a teacher training program at this school in Tempe. I can't believe how fast the time flew! I remember thinking how long it was going to be until I finally started school and here we are! first week of school!
My first day was on Tuesday (10/11) and right when I walked through the doors, I decided to sit down and wait a little bit because I was early. Then one of my instructors calls for the YO 101 class and says, "take off your shoes! there are no shoes allowed in the room!" So we have to be barefoot in the room, and it's so comfortable! I almost forget that I'm at school working towards a Certificate sometimes haha. And we have to wear comfortable clothes, I can't wait to make this my job. Barefoot and in yoga pants for the majority of the day! Heck yes! sign me up! :)
There are so many students in this class! it's amazing! and they're all so welcoming and friendly and we're all there for the same reason and the same intentions, which binds us even more. We started the class by sitting on the floor in a huge circle and as I looked at everyone I almost started to feel claustrophobic and just wanted to hide. I didn't know, at first, if wanted to pursue being a yoga instructor because I fear that I won't be able to reach out to any of my students and inspire them like I have been inspired. We learned about the word "guru" which means, "one who brings another from dark to light." I was so amazed at this word because this is the experience I had when I started doing yoga almost three years ago. My very special friend, Allison, introduced me to yoga and completely changed my life, that's what a guru does. I would really like to help someone like she did. I'm worried I won't be able to fully express or articulate an answer to a question that one of my students might have. I also am alittle uncomfortable with having the attention on me. I guess I just don't have all the confidence I need but that's why I'm doing this, to gain the proper knowledge and confidence, not to mention all the implied stuff, like the priceless experience and happiness this will bring me.
I would really like the opportunity to help someone find the light that they need. I can't even express how "found" I felt when I started doing yoga. I probably sound crazy but when I compare myself from now to when I was in my early years of high school, the difference is noticeable. My mom even told me how glad she was when I started doing yoga. She knows how bad I was and how depressed I was.
Anyway, when we finished doing introductions, I started feeling more at ease and more like I belonged there with everyone else. We learned some words in sanskrit and learned what the word "yoga" means and where it derives from. Even after those first three hours of that class, I felt so calm, and all my worries subsided, and I felt more like this is the path I'm supposed to take. It's the environment that I've desired for so long, one of the reasons I decided to the 30 Day Hot Yoga Challenge. It's such a comforting place to be and such an escape from our day to day lives. I went home so refreshed and content.
My second class was on Thursday (10/13) and this class was kind of emotional for me. If anyone has ever told you about a life changing experience or something that happened to them that just changed their perspective on life, well this is what I feel pretty much every yoga class I take. On Thursday we learned about the "om" symbol and what it means exactly. This is the symbol that I have tattooed on my foot. Then we split up into two groups and had two separate yoga classes to demonstrate breathing techniques and asanas(poses). All these poses are poses I have done a million times, and some of the sanskrit names were familiar as well because of all my hot yoga classes. then we did a meditation exercise that was probably about ten minutes long! I didn't know I could meditate that long. haha During this time, I was almost on another level, somewhere so unbelievably comfortable that I didn't want to come out of it. The instructor was talking and there were some times where I would black out and not hear her speaking. I was there but I wasn't there at the same time. Then I started to tear up. I felt so happy and clear minded and like I belonged in that room, on that yoga mat, at that time with all those people. It was great and so relaxing.
I slept really good that night :)
I can't wait to find out what else this experience has in store for me in the next six months. After I'm finished with this 200 hour course I will be certified to teach yoga! But I am going for 760 hours of yoga :) as well as some additional classes. I'll be keeping a journal to store my journey. I'm so excited!
My first day was on Tuesday (10/11) and right when I walked through the doors, I decided to sit down and wait a little bit because I was early. Then one of my instructors calls for the YO 101 class and says, "take off your shoes! there are no shoes allowed in the room!" So we have to be barefoot in the room, and it's so comfortable! I almost forget that I'm at school working towards a Certificate sometimes haha. And we have to wear comfortable clothes, I can't wait to make this my job. Barefoot and in yoga pants for the majority of the day! Heck yes! sign me up! :)
There are so many students in this class! it's amazing! and they're all so welcoming and friendly and we're all there for the same reason and the same intentions, which binds us even more. We started the class by sitting on the floor in a huge circle and as I looked at everyone I almost started to feel claustrophobic and just wanted to hide. I didn't know, at first, if wanted to pursue being a yoga instructor because I fear that I won't be able to reach out to any of my students and inspire them like I have been inspired. We learned about the word "guru" which means, "one who brings another from dark to light." I was so amazed at this word because this is the experience I had when I started doing yoga almost three years ago. My very special friend, Allison, introduced me to yoga and completely changed my life, that's what a guru does. I would really like to help someone like she did. I'm worried I won't be able to fully express or articulate an answer to a question that one of my students might have. I also am alittle uncomfortable with having the attention on me. I guess I just don't have all the confidence I need but that's why I'm doing this, to gain the proper knowledge and confidence, not to mention all the implied stuff, like the priceless experience and happiness this will bring me.
I would really like the opportunity to help someone find the light that they need. I can't even express how "found" I felt when I started doing yoga. I probably sound crazy but when I compare myself from now to when I was in my early years of high school, the difference is noticeable. My mom even told me how glad she was when I started doing yoga. She knows how bad I was and how depressed I was.
Anyway, when we finished doing introductions, I started feeling more at ease and more like I belonged there with everyone else. We learned some words in sanskrit and learned what the word "yoga" means and where it derives from. Even after those first three hours of that class, I felt so calm, and all my worries subsided, and I felt more like this is the path I'm supposed to take. It's the environment that I've desired for so long, one of the reasons I decided to the 30 Day Hot Yoga Challenge. It's such a comforting place to be and such an escape from our day to day lives. I went home so refreshed and content.
My second class was on Thursday (10/13) and this class was kind of emotional for me. If anyone has ever told you about a life changing experience or something that happened to them that just changed their perspective on life, well this is what I feel pretty much every yoga class I take. On Thursday we learned about the "om" symbol and what it means exactly. This is the symbol that I have tattooed on my foot. Then we split up into two groups and had two separate yoga classes to demonstrate breathing techniques and asanas(poses). All these poses are poses I have done a million times, and some of the sanskrit names were familiar as well because of all my hot yoga classes. then we did a meditation exercise that was probably about ten minutes long! I didn't know I could meditate that long. haha During this time, I was almost on another level, somewhere so unbelievably comfortable that I didn't want to come out of it. The instructor was talking and there were some times where I would black out and not hear her speaking. I was there but I wasn't there at the same time. Then I started to tear up. I felt so happy and clear minded and like I belonged in that room, on that yoga mat, at that time with all those people. It was great and so relaxing.
I slept really good that night :)
I can't wait to find out what else this experience has in store for me in the next six months. After I'm finished with this 200 hour course I will be certified to teach yoga! But I am going for 760 hours of yoga :) as well as some additional classes. I'll be keeping a journal to store my journey. I'm so excited!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Let's start over
This past weekend was very difficult, one, because I worked nonstop, but I liked working so that shouldn't be number one. I worked all day Friday and all day Saturday but I loved being productive and the people I work with are amazing. They help keep my mind off things and keep me smiling and laughing which is ultimately what I need right now. Anyway, Saturday night I read that my boyfriend that I just got out of a relationship with had already got another girlfriend, this hurt me so bad! I was thinking, "how could he have found someone so soon??!! (it had only been a week since we broke up)Especially when I'm still dreading the thought that I'll never see him again." ugh, I was crushed... So that news pretty much ruined Sunday for me, all I wanted to do was cry myself to sleep. I didn't want to acknowledge this day or even go through every hour, every minute...(I had the day off with nothing to do and all my sisters were at work.)But I knew that sleeping in and bring sad wouldn't change anything, it would only make me feel worse and remind me of everything again once I woke up, further delaying my recovery process. So I dragged myself out of bed, puffy eyed and everything, and put on my favorite show, Sex and the City, and told myself, "I don't want to feel these negative thoughts and feelings, go away." I felt much better and even relieved after saying that a couple of times. :)
In yoga,(yup! I'm talking about yoga again!)my teacher once told us while we were in savasana to invision ourselves in a white light, this white light was our positive energy, our positive energy and shield and if any negative feelings entered we could fight it by saying some sort of positive affirmation. So that's what I did. It helped me. :)
This morning my heart swelled with happiness and I felt wonderful, so ready for the day and even excited for work! To shake off the weekend's dreariness, I curled my hair for work! And I never do that! Not to mention I've been against getting dolled up for work, don't see the point because I work retail and I'd rather go comfy but today I wanted to experience something different, even something small, and go outside my comfort zone, I'm so glad I did too! Seems like when you try something new you see all these doors open and your mind floods with so much more ideas.
I'm going to do my own thing and whomever or whatever comes along, I'll deal with it then, but right now, I want to enjoy life and love the people in it who DESERVE my attention, especially those that helped me through this tough time, you know who you are ;) and as for everyone else.... Buenas suerte! (good luck!)
Drew <3
In yoga,(yup! I'm talking about yoga again!)my teacher once told us while we were in savasana to invision ourselves in a white light, this white light was our positive energy, our positive energy and shield and if any negative feelings entered we could fight it by saying some sort of positive affirmation. So that's what I did. It helped me. :)
This morning my heart swelled with happiness and I felt wonderful, so ready for the day and even excited for work! To shake off the weekend's dreariness, I curled my hair for work! And I never do that! Not to mention I've been against getting dolled up for work, don't see the point because I work retail and I'd rather go comfy but today I wanted to experience something different, even something small, and go outside my comfort zone, I'm so glad I did too! Seems like when you try something new you see all these doors open and your mind floods with so much more ideas.
I'm going to do my own thing and whomever or whatever comes along, I'll deal with it then, but right now, I want to enjoy life and love the people in it who DESERVE my attention, especially those that helped me through this tough time, you know who you are ;) and as for everyone else.... Buenas suerte! (good luck!)
Drew <3
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
This is for me
I've been having this urge to do something, anything. Something just for me. Maybe take a trip? Go somewhere new. I need to get out of here, see something from a new perspective. I've been so cluttered, with my thoughts, with work stress, but mostly, just me. I put this upon myself really.
I freed my mind pretty well, better than I expected. After loosing Shawnee this last time, I felt an ache like no other. I'm sure everyone has experienced this scared, lump in your throat, anxiety feeling. They're not going to be there anymore to hold you the way they did, to kiss you, to make you feel better when you're down. Not to mention all the personal things about them: his laugh, his hands, his smile, the way he'd hug me...I didn't have enough time to prepare myself emotionally because I had a feeling this would happen, he would be gone. Then, before I knew it, he was gone. The first thing I did was blame myself, "Well, if I was so 'amazing' like he said I was, why did he leave me?" But let's be honest, maybe I wasn't enough, maybe he needed something I wasn't providing, or maybe he really just needed to be single and sort everything out. Can't blame someone for trying to find their happiness. I would have done the same thing.
It's not very easy for me to find someone that I like, so when I do, it's scary and I doubt myself so much. Maybe that's why I'm so distant... We didn't end it in anger. It was a reconciliation I was willing to accept. Crying wouldn't keep him there and he obviously knew how much I loved and cared for him. I'm just sad. However, the only thing to do is keep my heart open, ready for the next person. Never dwell on "what went wrong" because everything happens for a reason. Don't beat yourself up over things like that. ANYTHING can happen, who knows what tomorrow will bring or what amazing experiences you'll have :) Keep your mind and heart open, never doubt yourself and remember your confidence because others feed off that energy and feel it. Everyone is unique, show everyone how unique you are! :)
And if you need to cry, then cry. You'll feel better afterward. I'm pretty sure I'm done with tears. I just have those moments of sighs. But I will tell you this, I will NOT hang on to this heartache as long as I usually do. I deserve happiness! Give me a couple of days, I'll get there ;) Sometimes I wish I was forty, already married, hopefully in my career and have kids. I'll just skip all those years in between. However, life is definitely something to experience and I'm not even twenty-one yet!!! Oh geez... I have a looooooooong way to go. Wish me luck! :D
Drew <3
I freed my mind pretty well, better than I expected. After loosing Shawnee this last time, I felt an ache like no other. I'm sure everyone has experienced this scared, lump in your throat, anxiety feeling. They're not going to be there anymore to hold you the way they did, to kiss you, to make you feel better when you're down. Not to mention all the personal things about them: his laugh, his hands, his smile, the way he'd hug me...I didn't have enough time to prepare myself emotionally because I had a feeling this would happen, he would be gone. Then, before I knew it, he was gone. The first thing I did was blame myself, "Well, if I was so 'amazing' like he said I was, why did he leave me?" But let's be honest, maybe I wasn't enough, maybe he needed something I wasn't providing, or maybe he really just needed to be single and sort everything out. Can't blame someone for trying to find their happiness. I would have done the same thing.
It's not very easy for me to find someone that I like, so when I do, it's scary and I doubt myself so much. Maybe that's why I'm so distant... We didn't end it in anger. It was a reconciliation I was willing to accept. Crying wouldn't keep him there and he obviously knew how much I loved and cared for him. I'm just sad. However, the only thing to do is keep my heart open, ready for the next person. Never dwell on "what went wrong" because everything happens for a reason. Don't beat yourself up over things like that. ANYTHING can happen, who knows what tomorrow will bring or what amazing experiences you'll have :) Keep your mind and heart open, never doubt yourself and remember your confidence because others feed off that energy and feel it. Everyone is unique, show everyone how unique you are! :)
And if you need to cry, then cry. You'll feel better afterward. I'm pretty sure I'm done with tears. I just have those moments of sighs. But I will tell you this, I will NOT hang on to this heartache as long as I usually do. I deserve happiness! Give me a couple of days, I'll get there ;) Sometimes I wish I was forty, already married, hopefully in my career and have kids. I'll just skip all those years in between. However, life is definitely something to experience and I'm not even twenty-one yet!!! Oh geez... I have a looooooooong way to go. Wish me luck! :D
Drew <3
Friday, September 9, 2011
My day in the sun
About two days ago I was on the freeway and while I was driving I heard, through the blaring music, a weird sound and the first thing I thought was, "wow, great. My tire just popped!" But my car was still driving normal, not swaying or anything so I pulled over anyway to check it out. Turns out the tread, or the very outer part, of my back right tire had come off. I got so lucky because I was still able to drive it to my destination safely. I called my sister Brooke to let her know and I knew I was gonna hear it because she had told me like a week ago that that tire was bad, she's studying to be an automotive technician so she's always letting me know about oil changes and stuff like that :) really nice having a mechanic in the family haha. So the first thing she says is of course, "aye drew! I told you!" hahaha I laughed because it was so true. It was sweet because Shawnee laughed at me too but still assured me that he'd come to retrieve me and he'd get me a new tire.
I ended up not being able to get my tire fixed because it was labor day weekend. I had work on Tuesday and was forced to take the bus and it ended up being a blessing to me in the end! I had made this deal with myself that I would take the bus at least three days out of the week just to be one less car off the road and less pollution. I still hadn't gotten around to getting a bus card so this was a good start. I loved walking and listening to music. Just feeling the earth underneath my feet, holding me up, made me smile and feel me with such energy and happiness. Might sound weird but that's what I felt. However, at the same time, I felt sad because all I saw was garbage along the sidewalk. I almost regretted not bringing along a garbage bag to pick it all up.
When someone throws there garbage on the ground, they don't realize how much that effects EVERYONE, let alone our mother earth :( and she's lashing back at us with all these horrible storms which will only continue to get worse if we keep going at this rate. It's scary to think about.
So the next day I decided that I would spend my morning picking a street and pick up garbage anywhere that I found it. I put on all my necessary gear(gloves, sun screen) and some garbage bags and of course, my ipod :)
I ended up not being able to get my tire fixed because it was labor day weekend. I had work on Tuesday and was forced to take the bus and it ended up being a blessing to me in the end! I had made this deal with myself that I would take the bus at least three days out of the week just to be one less car off the road and less pollution. I still hadn't gotten around to getting a bus card so this was a good start. I loved walking and listening to music. Just feeling the earth underneath my feet, holding me up, made me smile and feel me with such energy and happiness. Might sound weird but that's what I felt. However, at the same time, I felt sad because all I saw was garbage along the sidewalk. I almost regretted not bringing along a garbage bag to pick it all up.
When someone throws there garbage on the ground, they don't realize how much that effects EVERYONE, let alone our mother earth :( and she's lashing back at us with all these horrible storms which will only continue to get worse if we keep going at this rate. It's scary to think about.
So the next day I decided that I would spend my morning picking a street and pick up garbage anywhere that I found it. I put on all my necessary gear(gloves, sun screen) and some garbage bags and of course, my ipod :)
:( tons of stuff like this stuffed into bushes
Literally found like ten of these in the same area! someone was thirsty! haha
and another...
Almost didn't see ya there! ha!
Beads? really?
I got down and dirty! haha
However, through all that garbage, there peeks a beautifully colored flower :)
The end product :)
Yup, I'm a "tree huger" haha
Then after all this, I went to hot yoga and felt soooooo unbelievably great and so strong. I want to dedicate at least one day off that I have of work a week to going out there and cleaning our streets. Might not be MUCH but it's SOMETHING and for me, that's good enough :)
Sunday, August 28, 2011
I'm going to be the best version of myself that I can be
One day in yoga class as we were in savasana, my teacher told us, "you're not in here to change who you are, because you're already beautiful, but you're here to become a BETTER version of yourself." Like the many things that my teacher says in class, my heart filled with gratitude, happiness and willingness to open my heart and mind to all the opportunities. It got me excited for the future and motivated to better my life, thoughts, and outlooks towards everything, to even better my own relationship.
This is where I began to love myself and thank my body for staying so strong and stable after all I put it through, all the negative thoughts and being unappreciative. After realizing how much I've done for myself I started to build this confidence and started to see myself in ways I've never imagined or even felt uncomfortable thinking about, like being in a relationship with someone. This concept was so foreign to me just a year ago. I've never been in a legit "you're my boyfriend, I'm your girlfriend" relationship and when I was for the first time, it still was a fake, still a game, it was something I thought I could handle. But with that relationship, I was very insecure with myself and being intimate. It was awkward for me. However, the second time around, I felt like I found myself and started figuring out who I really was. I started to be more myself and not this quiet, stuck in the corner person. For example, when being around my boyfriend's friends, I would laugh and smile and try to have the best time possible. Before, the uncomfortable feelings would control me and I wouldn't laugh or anything.
So, after being myself and being true to myself, I started to find that soft spot for him, my boyfriend, finding ways to trust him, trying to open my heart ONCE AGAIN to another, and all the things I loved about him became greater than any altercations or disagreements we had in the past. Made me want to comfort and protect him because he seemed so fragile at times. He was so willing to be the best he could be and he was determined, but it seemed like everyone was out to get him, to see him fail. It hurt my feelings so much for him because I was there for his weak moments and I could see them hurting him even though he said it didn't bother him.
Sorry guys, I got alittle side tracked, but anyway, the point of the story is that I became less hardened and worried and tapped into MY OWN emotions, not the emotions everyone wanted me to feel. I've been letting everyone run me, so now I'm barely getting to know myself. I'm thinking for myself.
Even though he and i are no more, I didn't degrade myself. I was sad because I wanted he and I to work out so bad but our personalities were on either side of the spectrum it wouldn't have worked out. And even though he and I are over and it ended under bad terms, I still believe in love and that there's someone out there for me, that not all guys are mean and out to hurt me. I still smile when I see couples holding hands and sweetly kiss one another. This isn't the end for me. The tears come and go but I feel it's my spirit just letting out all the disappointment And heartbreak and making room for something bigger and right for me.
I'm glad I got to experience what I experienced with him. It made me less like a door mat and more of a person with a voice. I'm not all the way there, however, I'm much closer to a discovery than ever!
This is where I began to love myself and thank my body for staying so strong and stable after all I put it through, all the negative thoughts and being unappreciative. After realizing how much I've done for myself I started to build this confidence and started to see myself in ways I've never imagined or even felt uncomfortable thinking about, like being in a relationship with someone. This concept was so foreign to me just a year ago. I've never been in a legit "you're my boyfriend, I'm your girlfriend" relationship and when I was for the first time, it still was a fake, still a game, it was something I thought I could handle. But with that relationship, I was very insecure with myself and being intimate. It was awkward for me. However, the second time around, I felt like I found myself and started figuring out who I really was. I started to be more myself and not this quiet, stuck in the corner person. For example, when being around my boyfriend's friends, I would laugh and smile and try to have the best time possible. Before, the uncomfortable feelings would control me and I wouldn't laugh or anything.
So, after being myself and being true to myself, I started to find that soft spot for him, my boyfriend, finding ways to trust him, trying to open my heart ONCE AGAIN to another, and all the things I loved about him became greater than any altercations or disagreements we had in the past. Made me want to comfort and protect him because he seemed so fragile at times. He was so willing to be the best he could be and he was determined, but it seemed like everyone was out to get him, to see him fail. It hurt my feelings so much for him because I was there for his weak moments and I could see them hurting him even though he said it didn't bother him.
Sorry guys, I got alittle side tracked, but anyway, the point of the story is that I became less hardened and worried and tapped into MY OWN emotions, not the emotions everyone wanted me to feel. I've been letting everyone run me, so now I'm barely getting to know myself. I'm thinking for myself.
Even though he and i are no more, I didn't degrade myself. I was sad because I wanted he and I to work out so bad but our personalities were on either side of the spectrum it wouldn't have worked out. And even though he and I are over and it ended under bad terms, I still believe in love and that there's someone out there for me, that not all guys are mean and out to hurt me. I still smile when I see couples holding hands and sweetly kiss one another. This isn't the end for me. The tears come and go but I feel it's my spirit just letting out all the disappointment And heartbreak and making room for something bigger and right for me.
I'm glad I got to experience what I experienced with him. It made me less like a door mat and more of a person with a voice. I'm not all the way there, however, I'm much closer to a discovery than ever!
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Don't trust a kind face
Once again, a rollercoaster of emotions these past couple of weeks have been. My mom went into surgery for a hernia a day after her breast biopsy. For those of you who are unfamiliar with what a breast biopsy is, doctors jam this tool into the breast to take out the lump to further examine. Sounds very painful. Anyway, so she has her surgery and it goes fine. She spends the night in the intensive care unit just so they can monitor her. Then the next day she's in a regular room. One day I went to see her but when I got there she was asleep. She sounded very weird, almost like she was having a tough time breathing. Her head was alittle slumped forward So I thought that could be the reason for the restricted airway sound. I also tried waking her up and she would open her eyes but then they'd roll back closed. I tried a couple more times, and still the same thing happened. This alarmed me bad. My heart started pounding. I relaxed alittle but still kept my eye on her. Some time goes by and finally a nurse comes in to take her vitals(blood pressure, temperature). The nurse tries to wake up my mom too, there's no response whatsoever. The nurse's faces gets a confused look like something isn't right. She leaves and called some doctors, about 5 of them come running to her room and told me to wait outside. My heart was pounding. There was an instant I couldn't hear anything, just my heart pounding. I called my younger sister, Brooke and she left work to rush to the hospital.
My mom ended up recieving the wrong medicine. The doctor had mixed up two different medicines and gave my mom the strongest out of the two. Completely knocked her out and made her completely incoherent. They had to give her medicine to reverse what they gave her and put her back in the ICU. She explained to me her horrible experience. A week later they let her come home. She's recovering well :) My dad is helping her out tremendously and she's getting plenty of rest. We're all spoiling her haha :)
Through all the chaos and heart wrenching moments, I completed another 30 Day Hot Yoga Challenge!!! :D I won't lie, it was so difficult to fit yoga in my schedule. With work, having a boyfriend, and family and friends, I constantly felt pressed for time. I had a lot of anxiety so my shoulders felt like they were to my ears. I've been aching for a shoulder rub for about a month hahaha. However, those 90 minutes in yoga were so peaceful and full of encouragement. I bought more yoga passes only $10 for 10 days woohoo!!! Such a deal :) yoga can be very expensive.
My mom ended up recieving the wrong medicine. The doctor had mixed up two different medicines and gave my mom the strongest out of the two. Completely knocked her out and made her completely incoherent. They had to give her medicine to reverse what they gave her and put her back in the ICU. She explained to me her horrible experience. A week later they let her come home. She's recovering well :) My dad is helping her out tremendously and she's getting plenty of rest. We're all spoiling her haha :)
Through all the chaos and heart wrenching moments, I completed another 30 Day Hot Yoga Challenge!!! :D I won't lie, it was so difficult to fit yoga in my schedule. With work, having a boyfriend, and family and friends, I constantly felt pressed for time. I had a lot of anxiety so my shoulders felt like they were to my ears. I've been aching for a shoulder rub for about a month hahaha. However, those 90 minutes in yoga were so peaceful and full of encouragement. I bought more yoga passes only $10 for 10 days woohoo!!! Such a deal :) yoga can be very expensive.
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